i see you in my dreams, i hear you in my thoughts, i feel you in our songs.
you coming home into my arms is all i want.
it's been

since i last buried my face in your neck, kissed your lips, held your body, and played with your chin.

since i begged my dad to drive me to your house, where we would cuddle, have sex, and enjoy a movie together while we waited for your mom to finish dinner.since i looked out my balcony while i waited for you to arrive at the bus stop right in front of my apartment after a day of work.since i woke up and texted you right away; "goodmorning, how did you sleep baby?"i clasp my hands together, bend my knees, and lean against my bed. i pray to a god i haven't spoken to in years just to beg him to change your mind. heartbreak really changes people.i mourn the loss of someone who is still alive. i draw you and us in honour of our memory. i don't want to forget you.i wish i had listened to my mom when she gave me advice. i wish i gave you more space. i get so mad at myself for committing that error, but why didn't you give me a chance? i just want a chance to be with you again.i have dreams of you as if nothing happened, and then i wake up and i'm confronted with reality. i fall asleep again so i can dream of you a little longer.my heart needs you, you are my band-aid. i miss all of you. not just because you gave me love, but because i love your person. i was so blessed to have met you.i don't think i can stop loving you, so please think of me. my dream is to be with you again